Mike got offered a job with an amazing company as the Director of Investor Relations, and accepted! I can't even begin to tell how excited and humbled we are he was even offered this job. It has been amazing to watch him grow in the short time he's been working. As he puts it, this is his dream job. If he doesn't do a significant amount of work each day, he goes crazy. Sometimes I have to remind him to slow down a bit and take some time to still focus on school while not over-doing it! He talks about it constantly, which I love, and he is sooo happy to know our little family is being taken care of. He certainly feels pressure to perform well, but he loves it. And he loves the fact that not only will he be helping others directly with his job, but in a year or two, we will be able to help others outside his work, which we are both crazy excited about. Without going into too much detail yet about his job and the company, I'll just say they are going to be doing a LOT to help farmers. Which, let's be honest, is something I have always been a huge proponent of, having grown up in the heart of potato land. So it's something I'm passionate about as well.
We re-signed the lease for our condo for another year, but then we'll be calling it quits. Where we'll move is still yet to be determined, but we are 99% sure we'll still be in Utah Valley. We do want to move closer to Mike's family, so hopefully we can find something we like around Lehi or Highland. If things keep going the way they are looking like they are going with Mike's job, we'll be renting a house next year for a few years, then be building our dream home! Fingers crossed!!!
*Some* of the legos Mike has gotten over the last few months. I love the fact he's still a kid at heart. Who doesn't love legos? I know Mike and I do!
Taken in November during our trip to Idaho
Work for me got a little crazy from September-December. The last two months of the year we were gone nearly every other weekend, most of which had some kind of work attached to it for me. And when I was in town during the week, I was scrambling with shoots right and left! Thank goodness this month has been a slow one because I'm in desperate need of catching up with editing. Especially with things that have put me behind the last month, the least of which was Christmas! Hopefully I'll be caught up within the next week/week and a half.
In other not so great news, we had another miscarriage. I'm not quite sure exactly how far along I was, as I waited ages to take a pregnancy test, but this one was by far the hardest physically. The few days leading up to the actual miscarriage were easier than the past ones, as the cramping wasn't as bad, but the day I passed the fetus was excruciatingly painful. The day I started bleeding was not a fun one, because I knew and felt what was going on. I was in tears most of the day, but at the same time was willing to do whatever the Lord's will was, even if that meant having miscarriage #4. I was also put on complete bedrest in hopes that would save the pregnancy, but sadly, it didn't. The weird thing this time around was the bleeding actually almost completely let up before I had the actual process of the miscarriage. But the afternoon it happened, the bleeding was almost uncontrollable, which was a little nerve-wracking to say the least. By time it was done, my body was screaming at me that it couldn't go through that again. I'm still trying to recover in fact. I can slowly do a little more each day, but it's been SLOW. My previous ones I've bounced right back physically, in a matter of days, but this one has been completely different. I'm still on the mend, but I am improving each day.
I've been doing ok emotionally, strange as that may sound. I've had my hard days, but it's been easier to deal with. Partly because I don't have the guilt I had before, because I knew I had done absolutely nothing wrong (I felt like I had with all the others), and partly because I felt the reassurance from the Spirit this was not the end of the road, that this will be the last time I would miscarry. Through all the emotions, I've felt surprisingly close to the Spirit, and on more than one occasion, have even felt my children near me. My heart has been full of thanks. Thanks for the miracle that, against ALL odds, we are getting pregnant again. Thanks for the knowledge we will have a healthy pregnancy soon. Thanks for such loving and supportive friends and family. Thanks for the time Mike and I have had to foster the relationship between the two of us and the Lord. Thanks that the Lord knows us, what's best for us, and knows when the best time is for us to be holding our child in our arms. Thanks for the Atonement. Thanks for our eternal family. Thanks for the knowledge that our children are still in the loving arms of their Heavenly Father. The day I miscarried, although it was hard, the scripture that kept running through my mind over and over, which COMPLETELY explained how I have felt through this whole process was Job 1:21: "The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord."
The next step for us now, is getting into another doctor, and starting more fertility treatments. We're just waiting to hear from the clinic to set up an appointment. We've been doing fertility related things for over a year now, and we feel like this is the final step we need to take. Where that will lead us has yet to be determined. But we're hopeful we'll be seeing a healthy pregnancy this year.
2013 is going to be quite the year, can't wait to see where it leads us!