Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Loving Life

A few of the things going on around the Bullock household:

-Mike continues to be busy, busy, busy with his new job. He just got asked to give a big presentation at his board meeting on Thursday, which he'll nail. He is also going to San Antonio in February for a huge trade show, where, fingers crossed, he can sign a few investors!

-Skiing. Lots and lots and LOTS of skiing. All the snow we've gotten this week = guarantee we will be on the slopes again this weekend. And my mom is coming down, so it's going to be a blast.

-I started a new workout regimen. It's pretty, ok really intense, but I love it. It's the first workout regimen that consistently pushes me to my limit and beyond. Every other one I've done in the past doesn't really pose a challenge beyond the first ten days. Running six miles in under an hour? That seems easy compared to the training I'm doing now!

-We got into a fertility specialist. It's bittersweet, as we were hoping the things we have been doing the last year in relation to our fertility would work, and they did insofar as actually getting pregnant, but now we've got to figure out why exactly we keep having problems staying pregnant. We hope we get things figured out quickly. We've been waiting for four years come February to have a baby, and can't wait for the time we can move on to a new chapter in our family's life.

-We just hit our four year anniversary this month. It's hard to believe we've already been married that long! I honestly could not ask for a better, more kind and loving husband. Gosh I love that man! I could go on and on as to why I love him so much, but for the sake of everyone's sanity, I will just say he never ceases to amaze me. The roadblocks he has faced throughout his life that he was told he would never be able to overcome, work around, etc., he has. With flying colors nonetheless. He takes those roadblocks that would stop people dead in their tracks, and turns them around until they become a strength. Sure he still has his limitations, the least of which has been and will always been his health, but the things he has been able to accomplish even with those limitations, is nothing short of astounding. I couldn't be more proud of him and what he's accomplished the last few years.

More things are coming up, so we will definitely keep everyone updated. We are loving life right now!

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Recent Months

Where to begin...so much has happened in recent months it's mind-boggling. I guess I'll start with the good news. Sorry for the long post in advance! I just want to get this all down while I have the time!

Mike got offered a job with an amazing company as the Director of Investor Relations, and accepted! I can't even begin to tell how excited and humbled we are he was even offered this job. It has been amazing to watch him grow in the short time he's been working. As he puts it, this is his dream job. If he doesn't do a significant amount of work each day, he goes crazy. Sometimes I have to remind him to slow down a bit and take some time to still focus on school while not over-doing it! He talks about it constantly, which I love, and he is sooo happy to know our little family is being taken care of. He certainly feels pressure to perform well, but he loves it. And he loves the fact that not only will he be helping others directly with his job, but in a year or two, we will be able to help others outside his work, which we are both crazy excited about. Without going into too much detail yet about his job and the company, I'll just say they are going to be doing a LOT to help farmers. Which, let's be honest, is something I have always been a huge proponent of, having grown up in the heart of potato land. So it's something I'm passionate about as well.

We re-signed the lease for our condo for another year, but then we'll be calling it quits. Where we'll move is still yet to be determined, but we are 99% sure we'll still be in Utah Valley. We do want to move closer to Mike's family, so hopefully we can find something we like around Lehi or Highland. If things keep going the way they are looking like they are going with Mike's job, we'll be renting a house next year for a few years, then be building our dream home! Fingers crossed!!!
Christmas was insane, but so much fun. I got Mike loads of Legos, which consisted of the Lord of the Rings sets, a few Hobbit sets, and some Halo Mega Bloks. Oh, did I mention that was only half of what I got him? Ya, it was a huge Christmas this year thanks to me working so much! He in turn, surprised me with...an empty ring box...in lieu of a wedding band! I'm so excited! We've been shopping around to find one I like, and when we do, he'll contact his guy in Texas and have it made up for me. I'm finally getting my band after four years! I'm kinda excited about it. :)  And the fact Mike is a 'diamond snob' as I put it actually makes it even more fun, because he wants the best of the best. He's kinda awesome.
 *Some* of the legos Mike has gotten over the last few months. I love the fact he's still a kid at heart. Who doesn't love legos? I know Mike and I do!

We spent Christmas week in Park City at my in-laws house at the Canyons resort, which is always a blast. Ski in, ski out, life doesn't get any better! Not to mention the INSANE snow we got! There was fresh powder nearly every day we were up there. No, not an inch or two, we're talking knee deep, crazy amazing stuff. The kind of snow you dream of. The kind of snow you can't get enough of. The kind of snow you drool over. Ok, you get the picture. To top it off, I switched back to skiing after nearly an 11 year hiatus. Why oh why did I ever decide to switch to snowboarding??? Skiing is soooooo much more fun! And I can handle much, much harder runs. In fact, I skiied my first ever black diamond run, in ungroomed knee-deep powder. On my second day back on the skis. It was epic. I'm dying to do that run again. The fact I LOVE my gear doesn't help matters either. :) My first day back on the skis I just used one of the many pairs sitting in the ski room, but by time we were done for the day, my amazing father-in-law took Mike and me into town and fitted me up with brand new top of the line gear! You can imagine my surprise! And when I say top of the line, I mean top of the line. And did I mention my boots are 100% custom fitted to my feet?!? I can't even begin to tell you how amazingly awesome my gear is! I will not, however, divulge the price (eek!)! But aren't these skis beauties??? Next year, Ima gonna get myself a coat to match this awesomeness!
Mike is finally starting to do better health wise too. We've been working on it for a while now, as you many of you know, and it's finally paying off. Just to give you an idea how well he's doing, in 2009 and 2010 he could only ski a few runs before calling it a day, 2011, he was under doctor's orders to do absolutely no skiing or working out of any kind because it would put his body under too much stress. Buuuut, this year he was given the go-ahead for skiing, and he skiied more than me some days!! We would come in for lunch, and instead of taking a break, he would switch over to powder skis and go out for another hour or so before coming in to eat! And, he'll officially be working out again as of tomorrow, and he is doing school AND work on top of it. This is a HUGE deal. He's gone from being able to hardly handle a quick trip to the grocery store 18 months ago to being able to do work and school each day and still have the energy and stamina to go out and play on the weekends. Sure, he still has to watch things so he doesn't overdo it, but that's always going to be part of life. It's been amazing to see his health steadily improve this last year. And exciting! Oh, and he's slowly but steadily gaining back all the weight he lost! Wahoooooo! He doesn't look like a gaunt skeleton anymore, that's for sure!
 Taken in November during our trip to Idaho

Work for me got a little crazy from September-December. The last two months of the year we were gone nearly every other weekend, most of which had some kind of work attached to it for me. And when I was in town during the week, I was scrambling with shoots right and left! Thank goodness this month has been a slow one because I'm in desperate need of catching up with editing. Especially with things that have put me behind the last month, the least of which was Christmas! Hopefully I'll be caught up within the next week/week and a half.

In other not so great news, we had another miscarriage. I'm not quite sure exactly how far along I was, as I waited ages to take a pregnancy test, but this one was by far the hardest physically. The few days leading up to the actual miscarriage were easier than the past ones, as the cramping wasn't as bad, but the day I passed the fetus was excruciatingly painful. The day I started bleeding was not a fun one, because I knew and felt what was going on. I was in tears most of the day, but at the same time was willing to do whatever the Lord's will was, even if that meant having miscarriage #4. I was also put on complete bedrest in hopes that would save the pregnancy, but sadly, it didn't. The weird thing this time around was the bleeding actually almost completely let up before I had the actual process of the miscarriage. But the afternoon it happened, the bleeding was almost uncontrollable, which was a little nerve-wracking to say the least. By time it was done, my body was screaming at me that it couldn't go through that again. I'm still trying to recover in fact. I can slowly do a little more each day, but it's been SLOW. My previous ones I've bounced right back physically, in a matter of days, but this one has been completely different. I'm still on the mend, but I am improving each day.

I've been doing ok emotionally, strange as that may sound. I've had my hard days, but it's been easier to deal with. Partly because I don't have the guilt I had before, because I knew I had done absolutely nothing wrong (I felt like I had with all the others), and partly because I felt the reassurance from the Spirit this was not the end of the road, that this will be the last time I would miscarry. Through all the emotions, I've felt surprisingly close to the Spirit, and on more than one occasion, have even felt my children near me. My heart has been full of thanks. Thanks for the miracle that, against ALL odds, we are getting pregnant again. Thanks for the knowledge we will have a healthy pregnancy soon. Thanks for such loving and supportive friends and family. Thanks for the time Mike and I have had to foster the relationship between the two of us and the Lord. Thanks that the Lord knows us, what's best for us, and knows when the best time is for us to be holding our child in our arms. Thanks for the Atonement. Thanks for our eternal family. Thanks for the knowledge that our children are still in the loving arms of their Heavenly Father. The day I miscarried, although it was hard, the scripture that kept running through my mind over and over, which COMPLETELY explained how I have felt through this whole process was Job 1:21: "The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord."

The next step for us now, is getting into another doctor, and starting more fertility treatments. We're just waiting to hear from the clinic to set up an appointment. We've been doing fertility related things for over a year now, and we feel like this is the final step we need to take. Where that will lead us has yet to be determined. But we're hopeful we'll be seeing a healthy pregnancy this year.

2013 is going to be quite the year, can't wait to see where it leads us!