Friday, October 28, 2011


As you know, things haven't exactly been fun around here lately. But, I have been able to find escapes to help with it all.. Running (as usual) and photography.. Which are both turning out to be huge passions of mine! So far, so good with school! I should be done in about 2-3 months! And I've already got my first event booked in March, and waiting word on another one for April! Time is flying!

 Lots more to come soon!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Third Time is Not a Charm..

Where to even start... They say the third time is a charm, well I just had my third, yes third miscarriage in ten months. So apparently it wasn't a charm for us.  We felt so sure this was going to be a viable pregnancy (first of all, we went about doing things totally different this time), and were literally blind-sided when I got woken up in the middle of the night with the all-to-familiar excrutiatingly painful cramping and heavy bleeding and the sinking feeling that you know without a doubt you're having a miscarriage.. We have no explanation as to why this keeps happening because literally every. single. test. we have run has come back crystal. clear. Literally. We are feeling discouraged, confused, crushed, and so much more that I can't even put words to. For now we are trying to pick up the pieces again before we even think of having another go at it. But I promise we didn't drop off the face of the earth, its just the only person both the hubby and I want to be around right now is each other because we don't have to explain how we are feeling because we both feel the same way. We're alive. Getting through each day, one day at a time. That's about it. I'm still not up to going out and doing things with friends, so to those of you who keep calling me to see if I want to go do something I promise I'm not ignoring you, it's just I'm not feeling up to it emotionally or physically quite yet. But I promise I will get back to you. For now, we are just trying to digest everything.