Thursday, October 28, 2010

Waiting

As many of you know, we've been off birth control for a while now...a while as in 20 months. I'm not going to lie, it's been tough, but at the same time, comforting - if that makes any sense. I have days where I cry, ok a LOT of days, because I can feel how anxious our baby is to get here, yet other days I'm grateful we're not pregnant yet, because I don't feel ready in so many ways!

Like I said, there are those *hard* days. Days where I wonder how it's even possible for us to get pregnant, days I wish I already was, days my arms and heart ache to hold the child I know is waiting, days I get impatient, days where I think I may be pregnant only to come to find out I'm not, days I simply cry. Some of you know the story, but to keep things simple on here, we know we're going to be able to get pregnant. It's not a matter of if, and it's not a matter of our timing, it's a matter of the Lord's. And sometimes I have a really hard time accepting that. Especially when I get told, "Well, there's always adoption," or, "You really should go back on birth control for this or that reason," and other similar things. I mean, really? And this coming from people who are *fully* aware of our situation. Sometimes I just stare at them in disbelief, not knowing what to say. And it's hard.

But, there are those days I am grateful for all of this. Grateful I have more time to prepare. Grateful Mike and I have more time for just *us*. Grateful I know we will get pregnant. Grateful not to have to worry about birth control. Grateful I know the Lord is watching over us. Grateful for the strength the Lord gives me to get through those *hard* days. Grateful for how wonderful, understanding, and loving Mike is with all of this. Grateful for friends who understand, who have gone/are going through similar situations. Grateful for amazingly supportive parents-in-law. Grateful for the gentle reassurance of the Spirit. Grateful for those "moments" that make the "hard" seem more bearable. The list goes on. But mostly, grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who knows exactly what I need.

So, until it happens, I will keep trying to patiently wait upon the Lord..

Monday, October 25, 2010

Tender Mercies

Today I had my physics exam, and I was outrageously nervous. I'd studied for I don't know how long for this exam, and felt pretty good about the material, but was still unsure whether or not I knew it enough. Well, I got to the testing center, aaand...totally forgot they don't open until 10 am Mondays. Bummer. So I sat by the doors for an hour. A long, agonizing hour. Trying to keep my cool and not freak out too much. Finally 10 came, and I got my test, sat down, and it was amazing! I was able to think more clearly than I ever had for homework, let alone an exam, for that class! I was still nervous though as I handed in my exam. Then I saw my score for the multiple choice: 100%. What! I was soooo stinking excited! So, that's one good thing about the exam. Now I'm just waiting on the free response part, which all things considering I felt pretty good about..

Needless to say, I am still reeling over that score! To be honest, this couldn't have come at a better time. For one, I've been really discouraged about this class the last few weeks, because it has seemed no matter how long I study, it has made no difference. I was beginning to seriously wonder if the whole school thing was for me, and if it was right, because things just weren't happening, and studying was not paying off in any way, shape, or form. I finally decided to just let the Lord take care of things, and figured that if I was doing the right thing, He would let me know. Well, He did let me know. Today's tender mercy was nothing short of miraculous to me. Just when I was about to give up with everything, the Lord gave me a reminder why I'm here, and gave me the strength I desperately needed. Things like this never cease to amaze me. Our Heavenly Father knows exactly what we need...all we need to do it turn to and cast our burdens on the Lord, and trust everything will work out the way it's supposed to and all will be well. I am so grateful for this!!!

On a side note, I saw this funny and it made me laugh (we did springs in physics a few weeks ago), being the nerd I am.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

It's here!

Finally...3 weeks, $244 later...it came! AHH!!! So excited! One more thing off the checklist for Europe!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Speed Skating

I learned something cool today... My Exercise Science 302 teacher was the first woman on the first U.S. speed skating team in Olympic history.. Cool huh?!? Needless to say, class today was *awesome*. Curiosity got the better of me, and I did some googling to find out more about her Olympic career, and I found a cool little blurb about her in the Church news in 2002.. (You can read it here, just scroll down until you see Barbara Lockhart.) I love her perspective of life! While she was telling us some stories, she looked down at her legs, patted them, and then exclaimed, "They're still as hard as that wall!" All I can say is, I hope when I'm 69 I still have rock hard thighs and am able to bench 100 pounds!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Relaxation

Ahh. The week from heck is officially over. No more exams...for a week and a half anyway. And there's relatively little homework this weekend compared to what I've had the last two! Thank goodness. School is getting rough...dang physics, chemistry, and senioritis. But I can't believe how fast this semester is going.. Registration begins in two weeks for winter semester! I think next fall will come faster than I think it's going to come! Because really there's Thanksgiving, finals, Christmas, winter semester, spring semester, EUROPE, then a month and a half or so until fall semester starts...then graduation! Wow. Can I just say how crazy that sounds?!? I am so stinking excited to finally be done with school! The light is at the end of the tunnel and approaching pretty darn fast!!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Old School

So I took a much needed break from studying after I *literally* failed my chem test...after studying HOURS for it. (Gah I want to slap my professors sometimes..) So, I decided I would finally get some pictures scanned...and thought I would share some! :-D
I don't know..
 And Mike wonders where my cooking skills come from! :-)
 Pretty sure this was the coolest bed ever. I could sleep on top AND underneath it! Notice this was Christmas Eve...the year our parents COULD NOT get us to go to sleep.
Proof Jonathan sat on top of the humbug money and I dug it out from under him.
 Cody must have had a bad day.. :-(
 Note the look of *sheer* terror on my face
 Cody
One of the many reasons Island Park is so fun in the winter...this is only *some* of the snow.. It gets *much* deeper!
 Amanda as a newborn.
Grandma entertaining the grandkids
This was right before the famous - "MOM! I lost my glasses!!" freak out caught on home video.

Amanda playing dress up
All of us at the Conference Center
Simple formula: balls + socks + bin = happy baby. Every time.
Look! Just the right size mom!
Eighth grade algebra. Not a whole lot of algebra went on during class haha.
Neighbors!
David playing hide-and-go-seek
Freshman volleyball. I'm second from the right. In blue. Digger blue. ;-)
This is how we keep kids in line.
Yep, I pulled out my own stitches! All 13 of 'em!
Teaching David to ski was harder than it looks.
There's a reason we're sisters.
Typical late-night playing!
ET.
First school dance.

Girls camp.. Three of the four of us are married...wow.
Guess he liked to take gum from my mouth!

Miss these two!!!!!
Winter Ball Junior year - wearing Mom's Jr. Miss dress!
Parades were the bomb.
Darla, me and Raymonda after State Junior Miss. You are missed Darla!!!!
Skipping school to go snowboarding. Perfect day.
Singing happy birthday to David as I'm running out the door for a date.
Doing the usual first day at college stuff.

Far West temple site (top), and Adam-ondi-ahman.
Hauns' Mill site (top), and Liberty Jail.
Mt. Rushmore and Nauvoo. David was OBSESSED with the little girl. He insisted on giving her kisses and hugs nonstop.
One of the few pictures we have of Mike in the mission field!
Some of my favorite pictures of him. How did I land such a freaking HOTTIE?!?!
Sabrina and Mike crusing around in the Viper.
Macho man.
MTC district. Des Moines Iowa mission.

Salt Lake Olympics - Jim Shea.
Temple mission - President and Sister Pinnegar.
Last day of chemo.
Entering the MTC
More MTC.
Des Moines, Iowa.
Serving in St. George for a while between serving in Des Moines and the temple.